Last night you had that dream again, the one where you try and run from your fears but you can't because you're wearing fabulous stilettos. If i were the boss of you i'd make you get out of my head for good, but i'm not so when this ship sinks i'll have the comfort of knowing i wasn't in charge. I don't want to write a song, i want to write a will in which you get nothing from me. All i am is a kid in my mothers closet looking for an excuse to say "this doesn't hurt, at least not anymore". Then hatred, the kind of hatred that makes a father call his own son a faggot. I wish you were dead. There was a light in my closet, i could have sworn the sun was rising. There was a light in my chest. Don't leave me, noah. We had a promise. You told me the universe could help me if i just let it. I told you i made a map of our old house leading to the X on my stomach, when you cut me open you'll find a note that says, "this is where i hurt". I found a new way to talk to god. You told me i was brutally murdered in a past life. Why did you say it like that? I haven't felt the same since. If i were the sun i'd shine my light on you and leave the people that hurt you cold. If you were a girl you'd be a whore who likes to suck dick. When i was 15 i overheard my teacher talking to a girl privately about raising her grade in history, i bet she was a pretty girl. This message was brought to you by all the cats in my life Meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow