I down cups of sludge And stay up forever 'Cause I'm too afraid of what happens When I fall asleep Can't drift away If you keep on holding tight Trust me, it's not worth the fight Baby I swear that I don't really know if I'm lying to you Or hiding the truth from myself And I'm sorry I'm not But you deserve to feel dumb If you thought I was somebody else I know that you checked my pulse To see if I was freaking out 'Cause you were freaking out But I remain comatose From coast to coast 'Cause everyone I care about Is miles away Can't figure out the words to say That I made a mistake It's not my fault If I can't see How you could fall so easily And I am never going to be What you saw inside of me I'm thinking of Reasons not to love you Ways I can push you away And it's safe to assume When you step in this room You should thank your stars for everyday I don't really know if I'm lying to you Or hiding the truth from myself And I'm sorry I'm not But you deserve to feel dumb If you thought I was somebody else