Yeah
I'm Just
Tryna to
Find peace
Yeah
It's like
I don't even know
I'm addicted to my phone because I'm tryna escape
All the pain that I feel
I keep running away
Somebody asked the other day
How are you depressed and you're a Christian
You're supposed to love God
I don't get it, well that's the problem
Most people hide behind religion
And when you speak your truth
Most people don't wanna listen
I talk about the pain cos what I'm going through is real
And my relationship with God is the way that I learn to heal
Wish we talked about the things that we're too afraid to share
Wish we would stop pushing away the ones who really care
I really want love but I struggle with abandonment
People come and go and I'm tryna to learn how to handle it
Way to many exes, don't wanna know who's next
It's hard to let go when you hold on to regrets
Scars to my chest, I don't wanna be exposed
But I'm writing you this song as the key to my soul
So you could go
If I'm real
I'm addicted to you
Anything that will bring me peace
Anything that is right
Just tryna find a way to cope
Yeah
Look
Why has my phone become the only place to sin and to feel safe
And a crowd full of people, I'm so quick to escape
Why do I scroll just to focus on the things that I hate
Compare myself to other people who can never relate
Hell you're happy
And I know it ain't all real
Just because I know it, it don't change the way I feel
Trying not to text my ex, we being so toxic together
Old habits die hard when you wanna feel better
I want peace
Wanna feel loved but got somebody changing me
Looking in the mirror
Wanna love what I see
I know that you got options but you won't need choosing me
All that happy ever after, this was always supposed to be
The type of love that you never want to leave
But I can't expect from you what I'm never giving to me
Tryna learn to love the good and the ugliest parts of me
So I can open up my heart and give someone all of me
Ohh
So I guess I'm done with all there is to say
I'm tryna figure it out
Just like every body else
I mean I got good days
Sometimes
Really bad days, but
I wanna learn how to love you
With all of me
The broken
The bruised
And I want you to see everything
So you can love me for who I really am