Keep my mouth shut cause I don't deserve anything Feeling like a fraud at my job, cause I've faked my way Into every good thing that's ever happened to me Write a happy song cause I don't wanna mope today Try to sing along, but the thoughts they don't go away I will say the worst things to make you stay It's hard to ask for help if you don't really want it Passed out on the train in your own vomit "It's fine" I said, I'll bash my fucking head through the wall So I don't have to call you before I go to bed "Alright" I said, won't hold my fucking breath while you're gone But I feel it in my lungs Before I go to bed Dreaming in bad spanish bout your romantic tendencies And how they would translate in your fucked up fantasies You're the only good thing That's ever happened to me It's hard to ask for help if you don't really want it Passed out on the train in your own vomit "It's fine" I said, I'll bash my fucking head through the wall So I don't have to call you before I go to bed "Alright" I said, I'll scrape my knuckles red Stucco wall Do I have to be sad to get off? Or I'll never leave my head