I still have visions of you holding what just might be our baby girl
A dream a pill erased
I wonder if they would've saved our love
The really dragging thing is I know I don't love you anymore
I'll suffer visions here at least I know that I won't make you worse
We were tripping out and having such a dreamy luscious time
You got a real big head and broke off so much more than you could chew
Before I knew I saw your face splitting it's own self in half
Then your eyes rolled back
And I felt the hand of god take my last drop
And I watched you die
I watched your fingers turn black
We cleaned your mouth of all the vomit inside
I called the law and hoped you'd make it back
And your body did but your mind erased what we had
Exiting the womb you seem entitled to my servitude
Your words were deafening "I do not know what I would do with you"
My hermano says that god thinks that I'm wrong to have my rights
My own father thinks that it's my charge to watch my neighbors die
I know he's not wrong but where's the hope in discounting the earth
I'm so tired of Christ, the way he makes my family see the world
If I oughta burn then look me in the eye and take my soul
Let me be the husk you want to see
And use and stretch and put through your sick joke of an ant farm
And I'll watch you die
What if the cancer comes back
I know a cross can burn
I know my lungs are so black
I'll bury you
I hope you don't bury me
I'll see you off