I've been feeling like this ever since I can remember
Cover up with a smile, 'cause I'm a good pretender
Been too tired to try to make myself feel better
So I say I'm fine and blame it on the winter weather
Even my closest friend's been pulling away
Honestly if she asked I wouldn't know what to say
It's a little bit more than my usual sad this time
It's kinda bad this time
The smallest task is enough to make me helpless (helpless)
I wish I could go back to before I felt this
I'm falling behind because my body's unmotivated (now my mind's understimulated)
Getting up is tough when you're stuck in a rut and weighted
Even my closest friend's been pulling away
Honestly if she asked I wouldn't know what to say (it's a lot to explain)
It's a little bit more than my usual sad this time
It's kinda bad this time, day to day (to day to day to day)
I swear I've been like this forever
I've been holding out 'cause they say it gets better
When I feel I've had enough I'm unreachable
To those who haven't given up: I'm thankful
And I'm sorry to all my friends I've been pushing away
Some of you have been asking, I don't know what to say, it's a lot to explain
It's a little bit more than my usual sad this time
But I'm glad this time you're listening, so thanks
And I'm gonna be okay
Yeah I gotta be okay