With how we used to be I'd think that you would be more lenient But you fall out of love with me Every time it gets convenient I constantly feel afraid That my heart is going to break I'm careful how I speak 'cause I don't want a disagreement And every time we kiss feels like a personal achievement With every single day That you decide to stay I forget how often you change your mind Right when we're feeling good It could be the last time Tightrope walking on eggshells Talking to my friends like they could help Hoping you don't find someone else Late night fighting in a hotel Locking up the door to my own cell Knock on my heart, don't ring the bell And I'll be there I'll be there I'll be there I'll be there I feel like I'm in this cycle of codependency Like I'm not happy when I'm without him but I'm not happy when I'm with him And I just feel so alone And then I feel like I'm losing everybody else I'm losing myself My inner light is fading And I just feel so alone