I'm a fucking joke to you and I couldn't
Be anymore clear with the words I said
Promised I would bleed for you but you wouldn't
And nothing hurts worse than you in my head
I remember when
We were falling hard like a shooting star
Let your gravity pull me in
Fell apart as fast, like a chain reaction
And I lose the orbit again
I need time to think, I need another drink
A blackout to swallow me whole
Another heart attack, couldn't take it back
And now I know
I'm a mess, I'm falling apart
I know we can't get back to the start
Cause if we could, don't say we should
Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart
I don't want to hear about you
In a backseat, trading band tees
With somebody else when it ain't me
You never meant the things you said
Like "it's us forever" and "we'll die together"
I'm sick of telling all my friends I'm fine
I'm sick of seeing your face online
I'm sick of wonderin' when I'll be okay, okay
I still wonder if you're alright
If you ever lose sleep at night
If you ever think about the life we used to have
I'm a mess, I'm falling apart
I know we can't get back to the start
Cause if we could, don't say that we should
Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart
And you won't get out of my head
Now I can't sleep, anxiety keeps me awake
Now I overthink everything
But you don't need to, I'm a fucking joke to you
I'm a mess, I'm falling apart
I know we can't get back to the start
Cause if we could, don't say we should
Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart
I'm a mess, I'm falling apart
I know we can't get back to the start
Cause if we could, don't say that we should
Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart
And if we could, don't say we should
Cause I can't fix this goddamn broken heart