I'm Losing, I'm losing I've lost all that was sane Heart, body and mind revolted Pandemoniacal identity unfolded Now this life goes down into the chasm Deep into a hole, inner sorrow and depression I'm going under, so far under I've lost the ability to comprehend existence Thoughts of happiness gone, violence remains Clarity abandoned, only desire for pain Time to go, insanity beckons Life revolted by the choices that were set Absolutely feeling disgusted and wrecked Negativity made sentient drives me to the edge Laying more burdens down upon my soul Until pushed deeper into a dark hole Where running rampant and indescribable Live my thoughts that once were controlled Feeling so revolted by the day to day It may be time to throw life all away Nothing is real when life feels concocted Miserable, a thing of pure mockery Late night shakes. Toxins my dominion Through my veins chemicals dominate certainty Nothing is real when life is revolted Self-immolating logic, I must ruin my soul In the mirror I dared look, incubus of distress manifested Not sure if you are even real, doesn't matter I will keep soaring through the confusion of my lunacy The undoing began with the poison I gathered So it shall end, mind deterioration, embracing dissolution Despair and debauchery holds my soul hostage