What a horrendous impulse guides me into total darkness
What a nervous tension, what a senseless rush
What an indefinable sanity throws me into total disorder
What a lack of substance and repugnance towards life
What a wonderful irresponsibility plays with my thoughts
What an indescribable pleasure in power
Make me think of nothingness and emptiness
What a happiness in sadness, what an ascension to painless!
What a transformation of individualism anguish
What an ecstasy of its magnificence
What a beautiful solitude
What a timeless delight
What a voracious hunger lies in me
What a heroism in the face of final emptiness!