I'm always lonely on crowded holidays with your family I'm wilted flowers drying by the window pane Bumming everyone out Throw me away We left the party separate ways Cause I'm married to the music and my stupid dreams Twelve calendars in flames, but you can't stay You got tired of waiting around for me We'll say it's better this way But if I'm being honest it's a bust Smoking cigarettes alone Instead of doing nothing with you Smoking cigarettes alone Instead of doing nothing with you I'm difficult, exhausted Always chasing half baked plans Flying through the sky like a saucer Darting light speed through each misfired synapse You deserve a good life With someone who can make it home for dinner Order takeout food and hang out on the couch all night But I'm a disappearing act, I wander and take flight We'll say it's better this way But if I'm being honest it's a bust Drinking white claws alone Instead of watching tv with you And if I'm being honest it's a bust Doing everything alone Instead of doing nothing with you Instead of doing nothing with you Instead of doing nothing with you Instead of doing nothing with you Instead of doing nothing with you