How you think it feels that I can't smile a lot
I'm not depressed
But I turned all the volume on emotions due to stress
For the ones that disappoint me, hoping they would do it less
They should know I'm just a kid and I'm tryna do my best
Tryna cope, tryna live, try find a fuck to give
When people round me tripping and my grades start to dip
Damn, I finally know why Jay said Can I Live
At an early age they passing, and I'm asking can I hit
Cause something gotta ease my mind right
And I don't have the tools for me to redefine life
I just sat up in my room tryna get these lines right
Like before the curtains lift and the stage turns bright yikes
I imagined doing shows just to save my life
And I thought that loving hoes would erase my strife
Riding around with big wheels fishing for the price
Try to rearrange the colors make my lights bright
Wonder what it's like if I just disconnect
Yup, yup
Wonder what it's like if I just disrespect
Yup, yup
All the folks that see me then just overstep
Yup, yup
I'll just burn the bridge until there's nothing left
Am I being weak if i just cry a little
What a riddle
If i left it up to y'all my openness would make me fickle
I'm just tickled at the fact to keep my sanity in tact
I gotta hide from all you folks that just can't recognize your lack, hmm
It's like real life is just a cap
And I'm hoping that yo thirst for attention can find a tap
Just so you know what's inside can make you whole
If I didn't have this confidence inside then I would fold
Prayed that God would make me bold, now i'm wishing not
The price of knowing who you are is that they wish you'd drop
I just exercise this discipline, rejected taking Ritalin
Then I hold onto the goal until my every day is different
I can't wallow in this ignorance
Recognize that I'm not innocent
Kill myself for yo benefit
Too tired to keep shining, disconnect me like some filament
Wonder what it's like if I just disconnect
Yup, yup
Wonder what it's like if I just disrespect
Yup, yup
All the folks that see me then just overstep
Yup, yup
I'll just burn the bridge until there's nothing left