Silent summers, lack of colour I'm feeling like trash Where's the comfort? I just suffer I gotta get this off my chest I'm drinking and, I'm sinking and I'm laying on the living room floor I'm crying and, I'm hiding and My life feels like a chore So here's to my mother And here's to my father I'm sorry I'm not what you planned for And cheers to my brother, my friends, and old lovers You know that I've closed some doors Oh My heart is racing I'm rapid pacing and I don't know what to say This is me now, take or leave now It's like this everyday I'm drinking and, I'm sinking and I'm laying on the living room floor I'm crying and, I'm hiding and My life feels like a chore So here's to my mother And here's to my father I'm sorry I'm not what you planned for And cheers to my brother, my friends, and old lovers You know that I've closed some doors I don't wanna go down that path no more Don't wanna go down that path no more, more, oh So here's to my mother And here's to my father I'm sorry I'm not what you planned for (planned for) And cheers to my brother, my friends, and old lovers You know that I've closed some doors Oh, I don't wanna No, I don't wanna No, I don't wanna