I've been terrified since you walked out the door And these were not the lies I told you once before This is not the end, it's still an outside but I'm not taking off my wedding ring just yet In its years since I took stock of it Seems that it's become too much This is everything I ever wrote Collapsed into the core I've been terrified for far too fucking long What is that thing I lack that makes you so damn strong? Your letter in my hands is rolled into a ball With drunken comedy, it's thrown hard at the wall In its years since I took stock of it Seems that it's become too much This is everything I ever wrote Collapsed into the core The stitches are unraveling And the seams have all but burst Maybe all my years of traveling Have quenched of what I've thirsted These years have flown by These hands have shaken I have no notion Of what happens next There's a kind of feeling And I think of it Then the panic quickens There is no sorrow