Wanted to leave Wanted to leave the city Jesus was standiing far behind Never never felt nothing, nothing but out of place The walls crying christmas in the line Wanted to believe Wanted to believe the country 'Cause there i'm told that yes those people would Wanted to serve but only to serve myself 'Cause then i'm told that christmas wasn't good And i see that you were arranging Now that your family's in the clear Should i let her be Should i send a rose Now the liquors in his hands again Christmas is over Now the blankets go home I was angry, i was angry Christmas was choking and i need to be home I was loaded, i was loaded