I wish that I could be the way I once was But God's got other plans for me Some people say the worst is almost over But I don't see how that could be When I think too much about it I can barely breathe And if I'm still alive When the autumn kills the leaves I guess I'll be what they consider free They'll say what makes you happy But I warn you: This time I'm not gonna listen It's hard to tell until you look a little closer Then you can see right through 'em Every time I think about it I can barely breathe And if I'm still alive When the autumn kills the leaves I guess I'll be what they consider free They'll lead us all to water but I'll bet you They'd just as soon watch us drown It never happens how you really want it So hope someday you'll live it down When I think too much about it I can barely breathe And if I'm still alive When the autumn kills the leaves I guess I'll be what they consider free