It's that time of year again
We've got to keep the water running
Or else the pipes will freeze
It's colder in my living room
Than it is outside
No matter when I get out of bed
I'll still be this tired
I'm always
Halfway between asleep and up all night
Glued to dirty sheets whether or not I like
Around 4am I'm hearing voices
But nothing scares me anymore
I know it's just
That time of day again
Too much better than I've been
I'll scan eBay for a while
Bid on a ton of items
Start projects left and right
Then abandon them tonight
This might not be what good feels like
But at least I'm not so fucking tired
I'm halfway between asleep and up all night
Glued to dirty sheets whether or not I like
Around 4am I'm hearing voices
But nothing scares me anymore
I know it's just
New medication reacting to
My reticence to accept the truth
Got a lifetime of error ahead of me
Trial that might not change anything
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Whoever said "just get some exercise"
Has clearly never, ever tried
To claw out of their own damn body
Planned a route to their own exit sign
Barely held on 'til their next appointment
Couldn't eat and went to bed for dinner
Spent a holiday weekend in borrowed clothes
And those socks that help you grip the floor
They've never been
Halfway between asleep and up all night
Glued to dirty sheets whether or not I like
Around 4am I'm hearing voices
But nothing scares me anymore
I know it's just
New medication reacting to
My reticence to accept the truth
Got a lifetime of error ahead of me
Trial that might not change anything
Living and dying by a routine
It's just a disorder, not a disease
Still get a nice, long life, if I'm lucky