I don't even have a guest room yet
How can I expect to die like that
With space that's shared and rent that's due
When it's still my turn to vacuum
I lived past my first line in the dirt
Never thought my twenties could come first
I've talked too many friends down over the phone
Not to meet up at our next milestone
If I'm gonna be
Somebody
Deliberately alive
I want to do it right
I pay somebody on the internet
To talk through things I don't know how to fix
But it's all exercises in buoyancy
Not insured for the help that I need
And I give myself fat lips
Chewin' out my cheeks when I'm anxious
So I've told a few friends who say, "be gentle, kid"
But that only works some of the time
If I'm gonna be
Somebody
Deliberately alive
How do I do it right?
If I'm gonna be
Somebody
Deliberately alive
How can I do it right?
I'm not sure which one I fear worst
(Going young or getting old)
Guess I'll take whatever comes first
It's not like I had a say in being born
(Going young or getting old)
At least I'm not convinced I deserve either one anymore
I'm not sure which one I fear worst
(Going young or getting old)
Guess I'll take whatever comes first
(Going young or getting old)
It's not like I had a say in being born
(Going young or getting old)
At least I'm not convinced I deserve either one anymore
I'm not sure which one I fear worst
(Going young or getting old)
Guess I'll take whatever comes first
(Going young or getting old)
It's not like I had a say in being born
(Going young or getting old)
At least I'm not convinced I deserve either one
I'm not convinced I deserve either one
I'm not convinced I deserve either one anymore
(Going young or getting old)