A symphony of screen doors
Slamming on a sunday
Surf the couch
Don't come home till Monday
Long car rides and short answers
Each day we're going nowhere faster
This had got to end but i don't know where
To begin. And i feel so ashamed when you
Call my name or when i walk through the
Front door.
Each holiday is a tragedy,
You keep screaming at me and keep
Swinging at me, and then you wonder why
Jamie's gone but it's been
Coming for so long.
I'm so great at holding back tears in your
Face, i wish you knew how this felt,
But you could never understand.
This is the fourth chapter of my confession, I
Hope you read it. I'm leaving footprints in the
Snow from all my painful secrets
And i can't forget, how could i forget
And i can't forget all of the things you said.
The apple starting rotting, so i painted it red.
And made a caricature it of myself to be
The perfect daughter for the world to see.
Sit still, stand up straight.
Smile, wave, don't be late.
Do exactly as i say or
You won't live to see another day.
Pressure builds diamonds,
But it breaks them too.
So I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do
Because it's just been weighing on my mind
Stay here and die or run away and break
I'm gonna take my one man army
To the streets
You can't stop me
Don't even try
You can't stop me
Don't even try
I wish i was never born
I wish i was never born
Never born
I'm so great at holding back
Tears in your face
I wish you knew how this felt
But you could never understand
I'm so great at holding back
Tears in your face
I wish you knew how this felt
But you could never understand
This is the fifth draft of my confession
I hope you read it
Ive left my footprints in the snow with all
My painful secrets
Mom and dad; I'm sorry things
Had to be this way
I loved you both so much
And i really wish things were different
I feel so guilty, but i cant take this anymore
The abuse; physical and mental. I'm leaving
You but please just answer me this question;
Why did you do it?