It's midnight in New Jersey And we are not who we were I reach out for you in my sleep Wake up and shiver in the heat of summer In fever dreams I make believe That you were mine to hold But maybe I should cut it out I'm twenty-six years old I know I haven't talked about How much my daydreams hurt And if I'm honest with myself I'm slipping under and it's getting worse They talk about sending me back To Tucson on a plane And if they don't I might just Leave on my own anyway It sucks to think that we were Just more trouble than it's worth And who was I to boldy claim You were my greater surgeon on this Earth You left me on the gurney as they Wheeled me down the hall Gently telling me to hush Because you weren't there at all Here's hoping you forget my face By your wedding day Sometimes the people from your past Are meant to be, and better off that way But Arizona's calling me with peach and purple skies I leave at 6 A.M. and I won't even say goodbye My friend Jesse helped me settle in But there's still more to do I can't afford the trip back home To see you even if I wanted to But Arizona's beautiful You'd love the desert skies Sometimes I wish I didn't leave Without saying goodbye