31 is here
And dissonance
It does its dance
And success is measured
By a flawed
Resentful god
I don't take days off
They take me on journeys
Where nothing's enough
(I got grabbed by the scruff)
Therapy's expensive but the
Vast expanse of pensiveness
Won't lead me anywhere
(But here and)
Life it isn't cheap
And some ideals bend in defeat
It fits the figures on display
(Look at it go!)
I was raised on hits of dopamine
And Lord I need more
But I also need a living wage
It's hard to gauge how
Long I can endulge
My failures yet dodge
Achievements in charge of me
Getting here
(Mix of luck, gift of fear)
To value your creation based on
Love and admiration paints a
Picture way too small
(And Pricey)
To hinge your self esteem
To analytics that seem mean
In premise
Paralyzes your
Sense of self
It sits mending
Content and branding
Renting studios
Appeasing math
No sponsors on this
Stubborn path
But I'm able
To live a life stable
Enough for me to make
For now
Forget the fear
Don't feed the doubt
Just do what you want to
But more