I'm gnawing on the knowledge that I have been burnt And I'm learning things that I should've already learnt. Everyone I ever knew was so kind and coy... I was with a girl, but it felt like I was with a boy. I can't even remember if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to... But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms I held her in my arms but it wasn't you. I will not kill the one thing I love -- in this world of wreckage, I look above. Help me, Lord -- Help me understand what it means to be a boy and what it means to be a man. I can't even remember if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to... But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms I held her in my arms but it wasn't you. I'm gnawing on the knowledge that I have been burnt And I'm learning things that I should've already learnt. Everyone I ever knew was so kind and coy... I was with a girl, but it felt like I was with a boy. I can't even remember if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to... But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms I held her in my arms but it wasn't you. I can't even remember if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to... But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms I held her in my arms but it wasn't you.