Though we barely survived I never felt more alive I feel ashamed of where I've been Oh, to be a motherless child Oh, be still, my heart Your weaknesses, they vacation in my dreams And when I'm not sure if you'll haunt me in my sleep I'll know you're there Coursing through my veins, yeah Veins, yeah Try and starve the devil inside (Predisposition is I should've known better) We burn out dull just out of spite (The family crest is our, our medication) And this bitter pill I've swallowed down Is greeted by a poisonous smile, a calcified heart A cancerous gut, the appetite to give up And your weaknesses, they vacation in my veins And if I'm not sure if I'll see you in my dreams I'll stay up all night on the floor Taking pills to keep me warm Until I'm not sure I exist anymore But that's just fine, it's who I am I appreciate my pain, 'cause I never had a choice And it was you or nothing Can hurt me like I hurt myself