Damn n0trixx that shit really bang
Is that my voice?
My dear dreadful future
I'm ready for the torture
I'm ready for the torture I'll take every blow
Dear future
I'm distraught to the bone
No place I can call my home
So disgusted disappointed
I don't belong in this world
I'm better off all alone
But I can't survive on my own
My mind extremely disjointed
I feel my whole life is wrong
Everything I can lean on to is always doomed to be destroyed
Everyone I took for granted always ended up annoyed
Have I switched to hard mode?
Cuz I am ready to give up
It kills and doesn't make me stronger
And I am nothing but fed up
I'm a container of dark thoughts I hardly count as a person
I find it odd that I exist don't even think I was supposed to
Everything seems so pointless it's only gonna get worse ugh
It's either death or psycho ward it's so hard to make a choice now
It's so hard not to get depressed
When you are always put to test
When all your actions are doubted
When you're IV-fed with stress
Each time I messed up I confessed
I'm being overly obsessed
My mind is constantly clouded
My mum believes that I'm possessed
Bro what the fuck are you talking about?
It's just that sometimes I hear my own voice
And it doesn't seem familiar at all
The angry voice inside my brain keeps scolding me for my mistakes
Trying to make it proud is vain but I'd do whatever it takes
All those people it calls friends are there for who I was before
They just don't know that that person doesn't live here anymore
Each time I hope I found the bottom I'm only pending the next one
I found the devil and fought him but in the end I had to run
I used to face every challenge chin up at every pitfall
But now I'm crawling can't manage to lift my head up at all
I deserve to be weak yet I'm never allowed to
It is a never ending streak filled with my psycho laughter
I ain't waiting for nothing it's already too late ugh
I am tired of running
But I will not resist the fate
I can be wrong for fucks sake
It's my life that's now at stake
I won't allow you to challenge all the decisions I make
My dear dreadful future
I'll take every blow
You'll tear my soul to pieces and bring me the misfortune
My dear dreadful future please just don't let me go