It was a secret to be hidden from my mother And my father told me not close any doors So I didn't say a word and I left the doors wide open Well your baby has been torn I kissed her in secret by my house Scared someone might see But I realized that moment she was better than a secret And she was better than I could ever be Coming out was never coming home Running away from the things I had known We didn't know that our backpacks were filled with the bullshit We didn't know until we tried to fix it We broke up in February, the boy in college He touched me but I never touched him I wondered if that's how it'd be Saying I love you when I still couldn't fucking breath I called you many years later saying her name And you told me you didn't understand, it was just a phase Oh, I wish I had been braver when she held my hand If love is a phase then a phase is what I am Coming out was never coming home Running away from the things I had known We didn't know that our backpacks were filled with the bullshit We didn't know until we tried to fix it Coming out was never coming home Running away from the things I had known We didn't know that our backpacks were filled with the bullshit We didn't know until we tried to fix it We didn't know that our backpacks were filled with the bullshit We didn't know until we tried to fix it