Four legs bent over a clawfoot Deluged in panic Flower petals on my knees A mosaic drenched in pink And I wanna love you without your anger But now you won't tell me what's wrong It's been a while since I felt safe outside my bedroom I know I can't make my mind But I'm a sunflower, all dried up and dead and burnt out Overwhelmed by what I needed Bathroom tiles carved into my knees It breaks my heart to think, "Is this conversation worth having?" And I know you're sick and tired of feeling stagnant But your friends don't push you to grow I know we could all use some validation Between my pattern seeking paranoid defenses And my capacity to change I tried to loosen knots by pulling on them harder I didn't give myself no room to breathe And you can fantasize in time things will work themselves out Self medicate by running out of town In neurotic desperation I seek out bodies of water And learn to cry in total silence Bathroom tiles carved into my knees It breaks my heart to think, "Is this conversation worth having?" I know you're sick and tired of feeling stagnant But your friends don't push you to grow I know we could all use some validation We could all use some validation We could all use some validation