Resisting the urge to carve 'bitch' in capital letters into my thighs
Do you know how hard it is to write in cursive with a knife?
Just when i think I'm getting better
I trip and stumble and think about letters
I could've wrote to myself
You didn't write for long enough to be upheld
By myself
I'm hanging on by my pinkie
You see all the qualities I never see
I'm not saying its a privilege to be with me
But when you offered me some help I had voice that would scream:
Run, run, run, they are trying to trick you
And I scream run, run, run, they will dismiss you
I am greater than sum of my parts
Sometimes like I'm falling apart
And I am scared, I am scared, I am scared of being put into check
I wish that I
Knew exactly who I wanted to be all along
Then maybe I wouldn't got picked on
When I was young
People would talk to me for fun
They thought it was funny
I was just a child
And I was naïve
I couldn't make friends
Oh how my heart bleeds
I became toxic
And I became vile
I worked real hard to stop this for a while
Now ur sat here holding my face
Telling me everything is gonna be okay
And I can't bring myself to believe you
Just when I think I'm getting better
I cannot sleep and think about whether
I should leave this all behind
Everybody hates you and you shouldn't have pride
In myself
I was everything that you shouldn't be
I have a small case of disaster disease
I'm not interested in being interesting
I just think I ought to be more like myself at this mo-
I think you're worthless
I think I don't think I deserve this
Your songs aren't as good as you think
I was in the bathroom crying into the sink
I think you're worthless
I think I think I deserve this