Waited for god's gift, it never did arrive I scratch my skin until it bleeds The pain confirms I'm still alive Look away from me as I turn into what I hate most I'm the only one who believes my lies Each time I get too close This never satisfied me If what I need you can't provide me Find a way to make it numb inside me If I could start over The next time I won't sink as low The room is silent Her breath ran out long ago A prayer for darkness, one last cry for help I traded my identity for a better way to ruin myself This never satisfied me If what I need you can't provide me Find a way to make it numb inside me I could have walked with god I could have swam to shore I could have had it all but I wanted something more Numb and make it go away Numb away