Driving past the house again Memories of the trees They filtered out the world enough So no one else could see Parking in the shadows Lurking always underneath Still I stay just out of sight until I can breathe Working every night to gather up the nerve to try Keep away says every bone creaking as I creep Closer... Hollow brain like a dogs bark Shouting past the logic in a rage And I ask you. No, I tell you Things could be so different now I know I've really changed I swear I promise, Fuck, I'm shouting So you run for cover And I implode Now I'm smashing All the windows and the panes My arms are running red but Nothing seems to cut through All the attitude and horror I am It keeps me up at night and focused On a goal of how to reach you And scare you and oh my god I think I've lost you again Blinding rage now out the door The image of you spitting insults And the truth it always has a way Of cutting too deep And im a million miles an hour Blasting through the interchange And praying that those headlights Can stop the pain Anger got the best of me, let you down again But still I'll wait for a sign to show you I've changed I know I fucked it up again, scared you away But I remain dedicated to taking you down with me But I remain dedicated to taking you down with me