As a kid I grew up in a garden
Always tryna keep the weeds away
But no matter how often I fought them
They'd always come back
Whats the point of pulling weeds like these anyway
When I,
Try to sleep I get all of these nightmares
Of monsters tryna take my family away
In the middle of the night when I got scared
I'd say this prayer, I still remember it today
Will I last long enough
These nights are so exhausting and I
Barely even made it through the day
Will I be strong enough
To be the man to move the mountains
When each stone feels like my bones about to break
'Cause I'm not a hero, I'm weaker than you know
I failed to do the things I know are right
Lately my souls been rotting
Trapped inside my broken body
But I promised them I'd make it through the night
So I'll make it through the night
As a teenager I learned all about addiction
I wish that it had been the easy way
And every night I went back to the garden
It got darker and harder
To keep the weeds at bay
I wish that I could call this fiction
Pretend I don't still struggle everyday
I might not know how to be this
But god only knows that I learned how to pray
Will I last long enough
These nights are so exhausting and I
Barely even made it through the day
Will I be strong enough
To be the man to move the mountains
When each stone feels like my bones about to break
'Cause I'm not a hero, I'm weaker than you know
I failed to do the things I know are right
Lately my souls been rotting
Trapped inside my broken body
But I promised them I'd make it through the night
So I'll make it through the night
I love my kids even though they're not here yet
I love my wife even though I'm not sure I've seen her face
I'm terrified 'cause I know I don't deserve it
Will the monsters take my family away
On my own I feel so worthless
Alone theres just no way I could survive
But I got my god
And my wife
And my kids
And that promise to them
That I'd make it through the night
Will I last long enough
These nights are so exhausting
And I barely even made it through the day
Will I be strong enough
To be the man to move the mountains
When each stone feels like my bones about to break
'Cause I'm not a hero, I'm weaker than you know
I fail to do the things I know are right
Lately my souls been rotting
Trapped inside my broken body
But I promised them I'd make it through the night
So I'll make it through the night