Some days I throw my hands up and see a miracle
Light-years in the making
But most days I look down at them and say worthless
Some days I feel like I have to count my blessings through a telescope
But most days I count them like sheep
Like I'm just trying to fall asleep
And then when I wake
Each one of my sheets weighs in at
At least 50 pounds a piece
And I'm trapped underneath
While my insecurities turn to termites and gnaw at the edges of my dreams
But that is not me
I want to live so badly I'm willing to die doing it
But I will not be my undoing
Because this was not my choice
And I've heard it said
The sun will rise
And we will try again
I guess this is me trying to be someone
I guess this is me trying to believe in something
I don't know what it is but I know that it's big
Half of the time it's like
I'm a stone clenched in its fist
The other half feels like I've got the reins slung around my wrist
Now, either way I'll see my reflection in that giant's smile
His burning iris
Look
My life is a den of circling lions
I'm just trying not to get swallowed by the pride
But most days I can't get a grip on my vices
That's why I'm walking around
Biting the idea of a bullet waking up the silence
Inside, I'm shaking at the thought but
Outside I'm making sure I look solid
Like this isn't all just love and we're not all just falling into it
God
Why do I give a shit
Why not
What am I accomplishing
What do you want
To be the greatest
To write my fate and let it be taken by something greater
If not now then later
As if later isn't now and now isn't greater
Than lions and tigers and haters
Fakers and game players
Love makers and broken prayers
Now I see that they're all the same as me
And I'm no different than I once was
And I'm no different than I will be
Because this has always been
And this is me
Because one day
As the sun falls
So will we
Yeah, some days I feel like a realist
Some days I feel psychotic, ecstatic
Lucky as footless rabbit
Some days I'm running in circles from lions running so much faster
Some days
I feel like a forest fire getting fucked by a flood
Yeah, some days I'm a flood
Some days I feel on top of the bottom of the world
Some days I feel like I should
And I know
That I am no different than I once was
And I once was loved
And I once was breath
I once was blood
And I know
That I am no different than I will be
And I will be great
And so will we
And I will be alive
And so will we as that sun dies
So will we
And as it rises
So will we
Because this has always been
And this is you
And this is me
Because this has always been
And this is real
And so are we