I'll fuckin hate one day and just be happy the next
I might just open my phone and send a text to my ex
Just to drown out these emotions with some meaningless sex
And I mean who woulda guessed, when I'm left all alone
That if I ain't gettin drunk then I'd rather be home
Cause all these motherfuckin feelings cut me down to the bone
Call me a catacomb, I'm sippin out styrofoam
And you can try to hold me down but I jus be in my zone
Right, thats right, I been choppin up pills
I'm sorry momma if you hear this you prolly gettin the chills but your
Oldest son has gotta deal wit his ills
But he's got big dreams, to get a house in the hills
And been sinnin a lot, but I been praying a lot
And I know I don't believe but it's the last thing i got
But hey I gave it a shot, and I know you'd be proud
You and my real dad both i still let him around
But I just pushed him away, just like everyone else
And I jus sit here at night, I do it all to myself
I only saw him pictures that I kept up on my shelf
But i ain't ever fuckin call despite that love I felt
Mood swing type shit I've never been one for love
Cause the thing I the love most has just been money and drugs
I ain't ever have a dad so I grew up wit a vice
So I'll pop another pill I guess this pain will suffice tonight
I fucking hate one day
I'm never happy the next
I'm always sleeping inside
I'm always stressin stress
I'm always losing my time
I'm always trying my best
Close my damn closet
Take this S off my chest
I'm not a hero
I ain't flying no cape
Going ghost
And I ain't leaving no trace
I ain't a credit card
And I ain't about chase
Tired of playing life
And I ain't talking games
Can we cut to the bull
I'm tired of seeing red
And feeling blue
When I'm cool
And when I'm cool
I just wanna feel sane
But it seems I'm only happy
When I'm drowning in rain
I never answer calls
I don't need help
You can never change
How I see myself
I never answer calls
I don't need no help
You will never know
All the pain that I felt
So comeback