It's not getting better and these days all feel the same I'll try your medication, if it takes the pain away Blame, I'm stuck in the middle Of feeling manic and feeling sane Taking pills from an orange bottle Watch my color fade away I can only blame myself when it comes to my mental health You try to take the pain away, but all I feel is grey Every time that I reach out the words dry up in my mouth You try to take my pain away, but all I feel is grey Watch it fade away Watch me fade away It just goes away It's not the change in the weather that's making my hands shake It's the monster in my bedroom that's keeping me awake I reached the bottom of the bottle Heading down that road again I'm losing self control Start the problems again I can only blame myself when it comes to my mental health You try to take the pain away, but all I feel is grey Every time that I reach out the words dry up in my mouth You try to take my pain away, but all I feel is grey Watch it fade away Watch me fade away It just goes away