My name is Ryan Ben O'Bay
And I'm here because I'm not ok
Things were kinda bad before, but now it seems so even more
All my life I've felt detached
High strung unable to relax
Struggling to cope with all the weight, I self-medicate
Another night of pity and blame, tryin' to wash away the shame
I never told this to anyone before but I cry when I'm alone
I've forgotten, how it feels
Because the scars I wear inside they will never heal
It doesn't matter, anymore
Oh does anyone ever find what they were looking for?
All I ever seem to do
Is to smoke and masturbate in my room
I can't bring myself to care, lost in my despair
No one really even knows
And I don't ever let it show
I vent it all in my diary, a tragic comedy