I used to claim to be the kid who would make my family proud,
I never thought this was how i'd turn out, letting people down.
Living this way at the age of eighteen
Chasing just another dead end dream.
I'm fighting battles with my mind and maybe someday i'll feel okay.
But i'm sat alone at home
Thinking about everything
That's changed and gone away
And i'm getting used to it.
All i ever wanted was a sense of purpose
Out on the road here for better or worse
In the back of a van with my old friends
Thing's aren't the best but we can still pretend.
Up all night with heavy eyes
Smoking cigarettes and getting high
Thinking about how i got kicked out
I feel pretty damn alone now there's no doubt
I know i can win the battles i'm fighting
I've just finished college it's perfect timing
For me to go out and prove to you
That i've got some drive and a future too.
But now i'll stay at home
In this quiet town, all alone
And write more sad songs,
All about my fucked up home.
You're the only one i've got i don't wanna lose you
I know i fucked up but somehow we'll pull through
I still wish i could be how i used to
Just a little kid with some growing up to do.
I wish i still wanted to be like you
But i've moved on and you should too,
So this is a note to say i'm leaving
Maybe someday i'll get past this feeling.
But now i'll stay at home
In this quiet town, all alone
And write more sad songs,
All about my fucked up home.
You're the only one i've got i don't wanna lose you
I know i fucked up but somehow we'll pull through
And you know i'll still call at the end of each day
I'll let you know when i'm better and if i feel okay.