I've slowly learned How to live And to die From my own hands I find it hard To live this down And im bound to Bound to the woe Of My Apprehension A new way to cope Or another day spent hanging from this old familiar rope It's all the same to me anyway A new way to cope Bloom and spread the secrets upon my Lips Before I turn and I commit the sin Again And I will find new ways to hate myself Finding joy In the mockery Of my suffering And I come to you bearing wounds Dependent upon your response Because I can't feel a thing I've slowly learned How to live And to die From my own hands I find it hard To live this down And I'm bound to Bound to the woe I am pleading For sedation Disillusioned From the act of A sacrifice That's meant nothing It's meant nothing It's meant nothing I have gained nothing in spilling all my blood for you I have gained nothing at all For all the pain I bear I have gained nothing I am not the same I can never Get back What I've lost I am not worth saving Time has only brought decay And fleeting moments That are forced to fade Idle hands bear the anguish of misery Knowledge begets... Death I've slowly learned How to live And to die From my own hands I find it hard To live this down And im bound to Bound to the woes I'am pleading For sedation Disillusioned From the act of A sacrifice That's meant nothing It's meant nothing It's meant nothing Mockery Of my suffering