God I fucking prayed but my hands still shook And since you've left I've slipped away To a place that haunts me every day and misery has worn me thin Please forgive the state I'm in Please share Share your sunshine with me Bask me in the light of happiness Let it burn me, let it fucking kill me Drawing shallow breaths and I fade away I don't think I'll ever leave this place The cousin of death is a stranger to me And I fade away God, is this deja vu? Because I see you in everything I do A reflection of misery, I'm wearing thin Please forgive the state that I'm in Every day that I wake is just more than I can face The sunshine seeps in between the blinds but the rays never touch me The warmth avoids me like a curse rests upon me I'm feeling sick with every word you say I'll choke on the smoke from dreams of fire that felt like you Please set me free and say no more I'm sick of existing and feeling numb