If I could go outside again
& I could be like any other girl
I'd dress in a face mask
& Walk on the beach till my feet hurt
If I were twelve years old again
& I had all the money in the world
I'd buy me a pool pass
& Drown myself in a t shirt
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh
Needed for the world not to turn no more
Tried it but the bridge won't burn
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh
Needed for the world not to turn no more
Tried it but the bridge won't burn
I prayed (pray)
Seems as if god & the devil have been fighting over me
I let whoever take over the motions supposedly
I don't remember a lot of the way that it felt before
But I know that it must be better cuz
I
Cry
So
Much more
But at least it feels more like healing
Than
It
Did
Before
But I still can't shake this feeling that
If I could go outside again
& I could be like any other girl
I'd dress in a face mask
& Walk on the beach till my feet hurt
If I were twelve years old again
& I had all the money in the world
I'd buy me a pool pass
& Drown myself in a t shirt
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh
Needed for the world to not to turn no more
Tried it but the bridge won't burn
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh
Needed for the world not to turn no more
Tried it but the bridge won't burn
As long as I just keep my breathing steady
& As long as I just keep moving my legs
Things'll just... eventually be fine
I kept wanting to find dangerous things to climb on or walk on or
Do whatever on, because it was like
It was a kind of danger that I could feel for myself
Without it being a danger that was produced by other humans
Just seeing human bodies be extremely resilient
Or human bodies just having all these impulses in the things that they do
To keep themselves safe
There's just so many little things at play
It's just taking care of everything in the background