I'm rapping on stage every night in front of strangers
Hoping that I'm gon' get they love and affection
Cause everyone around me who said they loved me
Flipped the script and sprinted off in every direction
Maybe I should chill out, straighten up
Quit crying and stop being so emotional
Expectations are the devil so I'm parting ways with Lucifer
And I'm done being hopeful
My new girl says I need to sleep more (Sleep more?)
She's worried bout my mental
Try to tell her baby girl I gotta grind hard
Because I'm terrified of wasting my potential
So I'm spending all my time running round the city tryna blow up
She'll understand the vision once she sees the glow up
But while I'm busy tryna blow up to glow up
I haven't flown south to watch my niece and nephew grow up
Bout to turn 30 with some twisted priorities
Doesn't add up when you think about logically
Ignoring those that love me to make it in a game
Where fans could care less if I die and that's just honesty
But no sorry letters, no apologies
You can't say I'm wrong when it's MY ideology
Lifes a running clock so I'll let my journey play out
But having tough convos with new women that I take out
You're just another black rapper?
He's JUST ANOTHER BLACK RAPPER!
Oh you rap, cool so does my cousin
Yall niggas all the same, we should call y'all dime a dozen
I don't know your cousin, but I wish him well
And if he truly loves his craft you should hug his black ass
Cause he's doing what he loves and that love came from above
So instead of all the judging help that young-in rise up
I'm not a dummy, i know i had options
Could've passed the bar and lawyered up like Cochran
But if the raps pan out, gotta use caution
Cause doubters turn to birds and they all start flocking
Truth be told i just wanna be loved
We all just wanna be loved
The dreams get higher, the grind gets dire
If I stay where I'm at i might set myself on fire
And I'm so tired of always rapping bout my 9-5
But I don't wanna live a lie, I'm tryna live alive
Meanwhile I'm dodging all the jokers that be lurking
Cause if you hang with clowns, that's when you join their circus
Feeling like time's running out in my hourglass
Blink twice and my life just passed
But I'm not rushing, cause lord knows
I was raised by the beach so used to sand between my toes nigga