Wishing away all of my best days just to try to end this pain
Just to bend and break
I could never feel again
God won't hear me. The devil twists the blade
If I could be anybody I'd never fucking choose me
Anywhere to point the finger. Any blame to cast but you
But you could never be so hopeless
I won't change just to face the day to day
Grappling with what makes me me
I fear my best days are behind me. Any worse and there won't be many
When the madness takes hold, what will be left of me
When the grief finally wins, who will remember me
It's like I've cheated death one too many times
You wouldn't believe what goes on inside my head
Am I really begging for heaven, or am I just wishing for death
Give me a eulogy. Let me say my last words
Mourning a future with so much worth fighting for