Drunk on the taste, of the hate, and the wine though
Self loathing burns a bit like a merlot
Stuck on the past, yeah maybe I should let go
Lifes too short just to dwell in my ego
Veto a deeper discussion
Cause esteem seems to gleam but its prone to combustion
When it burns then you'll learn that it's just that sudden
Watch your self obsession just turn to nothing
Bluffing bout self care yeah pretend I'm praising.
Pretend I got faith that's never fading
I could preach but I'd never practice
Gospel singing like a fucking baptist (Amen)
So tell me how you feel is it real
You know who you are I can see the appeal
But I've lived life on a simpler path
I push it down, without a sound, yeah I let it pass
In the past just a kid, didn't bear no burdens
Still cried back then when I was hurtin
Still asked for help when I was feeling worthless
He said son tell me what's the purpose
He said, Swallow your emotions
I guess I never thought I could
But Now I'm just a glutton
Now I'm eating good
Ok yeah I'm ok
I don't know what else to say
Pretend I've got no problems
Maybe they'll go away
Ok yeah I'm ok
Haven't slept in seven days
Think I can see my future
Wish it went another way
Am I depressed or am I manic, or yeah maybe just an addict
Am I crazy am I lazy or just really fucking average
I don't know, let it go, bottle up, let it blow
I guess I've made it this far, tell me what's a little mo
Demons, Chasing
Spent my whole life trying just to outpace em
She's Just, Waiting
Thought she got a man not a psych ward patient
Thought I'd never really have to talk, that's the whole ploy
Never figured out what to say, I don't play coy
Taking fuckin shots in the dark, just a sad boy
Throw it all away, maybe then, it will spark joy
Am I strong when I don't speak
Am I a coward, am I just weak
Could all be a joke and I'm just fine
Whole life waiting on a punch line
Bear the weight, Ignore the hate, coastin
Start to bleed, ignore my needs, boastin
Baby you could never understand
That's what it means to be a man
So ill, Swallow my emotions
I never thought I should
But now I'm just a glutton
Now I'm eating good
Ok yeah I'm ok
I don't know what else to say
Pretend I've got no problems
Maybe they'll go away
Ok yeah I'm ok
Haven't slept in seven days
Think I can see my future
Wish it went another way
Am I depressed or am I manic, or yeah maybe just an addict
Am I crazy am I lazy or just really fucking average
I don't know, let it go, bottle up, let it blow
I guess I've made it this far, tell me what's a little mo