You were a vision of hope, a light in the dark But you gave it all up for the veins in your arms Someone I looked up to, someone I could be when I grew up You had your words in place, your mind was sharp But you lost your passion for a shot in the dark A place of security, distraught and untrue I lost my hope when I gave up on you Tongue in cheek It never meant that much to me But now that I'm older The more I look back the more I see The lies (the lies) The hurt (the hurt) The pride in you that died inside of me That all ended when you raised your fist in anger An example was all I needed But that wasn't set It hurt to know you'd been beaten You didn't even try your best I hoped you'd pull yourself out With that weight on your chest getting harder to bear I want you to know, Listen to me I want you to know, listen to me I looked up to you But it made me who I am today And after it all I changed the course and set the map on fire Without a light how could I stay on course Without an anchor how could I survive a storm Substance abuse, was the only example I got from you You weren't much of a problem solver Unless it was with your fists This is my problem I've learnt to deal with Tear the skin from my limbs It'll be less healing I looked up to you and you crumbled I looked up to you and you weren't even fucking there