I need a fix
I need a way out of this shit
It's been three whole fucking days
Since the last that I've slept
My fucking head is on overload
But my mind is on an overdose
Maybe I just don't know what to do no more
So I set my eyes on the bathroom door
And I'll uncover
I'm a worthless mother fucker
I think this is best
Little pain in my chest
One bottle down
So I'm moving on to the next
My stomach is sick
My vision is shit
But I won't stop until I finish this cabinet
I've swallowed down
Every fucking thing from the wall to the sink
This shit isn't working
Tell me is it worth it?
I NEED TO
Decide right now
If I want to wait this out
Or end it now
I'll fucking end it now
Pulling myself to my feet
I'm suffering, still struggling
To find enough air to breathe
And it's scaring me
To think that this is it
But 15 years of this shit
Is long enough to call it quits
I've waited so long for this
I'm starting to regain lost consciousness
I need a permanent solution to a temporary mess
And it's obvious the problem is more than meets the eye
So I'm writing you this letter right before I fucking die
Once you read it
You'll uncover
How a worthless mother fucker
Tortured me until I suffered
But don't you worry for a minute
Cause I beat his life to death
I really thought that that'd be it
But I'm finding out that I'm not finished yet
Over and over
I've thought this through
So I went in the closet
Loaded up and cocked it
I needed to stop this
SO I FUCKING DID!
I just couldn't stomach
Leaving you with nothing
I hope what this note says
Leaves you all with something