If I was heartless Well that would make it easier To say the things I need to But I run instead I wish I was hollow 'Cause then the pill I have to swallow Wouldn't choke me up Infect my soul again I don't know how I got like this I wish I wasn't so helpless But every time I try to I'm too paralyzed to Get the poison off my chest I didn't wanna fail again Watch another ship sail again I'm no good at goodbyes I can't look in your eyes You would never understand I wish it were easy I hate it that you think you need me Said it from the start That I'm no good at love Don't try to read me Some books should stay closed believe me Please don't fall apart For what this never was I don't know how I got like this I wish I wasn't so helpless But every time I try to I'm too paralyzed to Get the poison off my chest I didn't wanna fail again Watch another ship sail again I'm no good at goodbyes I can't look in your eyes You would never understand I don't know how I got like this I wish I wasn't so helpless But every time I try to I'm too paralyzed to Get the poison off my chest I didn't wanna fail again Watch another ship sail again I'm no good at goodbyes I can't look in your eyes You would never understand