I can't have you, but I can dream
All of the things that I can't see
But I feel them
When I close my eyes
And it's real then
Just hasn't yet arrived
If I can't reach you yet
Then I'll just keep you in my head
I'll dream you to life instead
Why you want to see my like this?
I don't understand what's so funny
I don't wanna see another day like this
I've been all up in my head, I shouldn't waste my stress
Can't feel shit, I don't know what's so appealing
You could leave, but we could both use the healing
No time for that
And my mind too high, we should climb for that
All the shadows, the trapdoors, the castles
My pasture, my mindset is active, destructive
All feel like an outro
Why the night sky so pretty?
Even though the whole entire world so filthy
Feel like a stranger when I'm up inside my city
But life just different when you're not with me
So answer your phone
Lemme know
I know you're back home
And I've been on the road
Doing all these shows
But I'm here with a goal and a plan
I'mma leave when I can
But I don't understand
What the fuck is your problem
I've been out of options
Up late sobbing
Nobody here so my thoughts like violence
Nobody here but my shadow and a dream
I've been all alone since I turned thirteen
I've been all alone, now my nightmare real
I don't even know Ben Beal