As I look around I would have thought by now That I would be closer To feeling something somehow Surely there's a reason I've been Waking up from dreams without direction Could it be that I forgot What it was like to be whole; Without this constant looming doubt? I would have thought by now That I would be closer To feeling something, somehow Knowing it extends so far beyond Perceptions so vague to me It's like a colour I'm blind to That I thought I'd see by now But nothing I feel is real to me Why should I care? There's failure ahead of me I know for sure But we can't go backwards; Learn from your mistakes You spend weeks in your cage Just to walk in circles Waiting for a change Sometimes I feel that my conscience has healed But I know that it's just imitation And I hope that I have limitations One day we'll see With the thoughts in my head And my head in my hands To put it in words is a means to an end But now I would believe in anything That brings you back to me I would have thought by now That I would be closer To feeling something somehow Knowing it extends far beyond My sick lack of empathy Like a colour I'm blind to That I thought I'd see by now But nothing I feel Is real to me