I lingered through the night Pacing unfamiliar streets Counting every mistake I've made Neglecting those I love and destroying all I've worked for I replay every act of desperation I re-enact every chemical inhalation As my lungs collapse my life flashes before me I thought the shapes would fall into place I was wrong Solely to blame I should have rewrote everything All I have left is a guilty hatred Aimed at all who surround me This defeated demeanor Stemmed from my hauntings Brought a cruel insight to my isolation Questions dwell on my conscience Has my seclusion run its course? Or will I die under the mountain? Was it for sympathy? Or a test of my indifference? Sullen face and somber eyes Cold hands and unforgivable lies Can I ever change?