(Keeping you close I don't always Love what the heroes do) Every time I close my eyes And I'm waking up in the afterlife What's it like after death? let me tell you Just subliminal space with the dark view Waiting for the anxiety to come through Darkness around me that I never grew I swear on my mind that I can not think By god I need to swim? but I'm gonna sink I am drowning in the thoughts, I am on the brink To think that I lost everything in a blink I feel so alone, I become a nobody Ever since I died, nobody's taking to me With the mask on that they oversee I want to be the best, but I dunno where to be And I feel like I'm gonna waste away I really don't wanna go outside today Saying goodbye to the good old days (Keeping you close I don't always Love what the heroes do Every time) Every time I wake up into this shitty world I feel like a phoney Feel so bound into my own bed Better stay here and make it homely This impostor syndrome's eating me up inside And it's killing me slowly I just wanted someone who relate too But I guess don't, So I feel so lonely And I got no messages, into the screen I stare I know why, it's because nobody cares Wouldn't be surprised when it's my funeral And it turns out nobody's there I'm corrupting my own files and my hard drive Going in head first like a nosedive This is what it's like in the afterlife Every time I close my eyes And I'm waking up in the afterlife And now I have two options I can drop all of this and just give up And walk away and continue with my life? Or I can be the hardest and the strongest Motherfucker in my bloodline!