Our early years were the best
I wore myself down as I sat in the mess
I'd focus on me and I'd start to obsess
Over things I should have left unsaid
My hunches are never right
I'm leaving downtown and I'm gone for the night
I've been deeply changed, I'm looking for fights
With people who look like you
Getting your scraps just ain't enough lately
I need a meal intended just for me
But you know
That I just can't eat alone
So you bite right through my bones
Seek out what you need and then
Dip out
With the meat
Leaving a husk that I give away
It's useless, a hull that I give away
Loving you is not easy
Loving you's hard
You can be callous and draining
With no regard
For the face that I make to lead you on
You'll never know the things I've done
And loving you is not easy
Loving you's hard
If it's love that I've been feeling
Oh, oh
With carelessness comes regret
Bit you like control, you like keeping a pet
Your rules suffocate, I'm gasping at air
That's trapped in your bubble too
I'm tired of being nice
I never absorb lackluster advice
Just save your breath, I'm not listening, I'm
Hoping you will be quiet soon
You're living in the illusion of your daydream
Numbing, killing an emotion surfacing
Eyes wide, plead to the heavens
Good god give me just a second
A weapon, or something buoyant
Keep me out that water
I'm weighted I can sink no farther
Quickly you push it down below
Thick silt immovable
Desperate it wants to claw back
But your foot is stronger and holds back
The frustration, anxiety it's
Deep down inside of me
Hello - can you make that place your home
As I try to mend my bones
Seek out what you need and then
Dip out
With the meat
Leaving a husk that I give away
It's useless, a hull that I give away
Loving you is not easy
Loving you's hard
You can be callous and draining
With no regard
For the face that I make to lead you on
You'll never know the things I've done
And loving you is not easy
Loving you's hard
If it's love that I've been feeling
Oh, oh