I just wrote a letter to myself & all it said was
Don't give up yet
And when things don't seem to be going well
Just smile & don't get upset
I really miss my ex
I know she think I just miss her sex
But by the day I start to miss that less
What I really miss is
How she always made me give my best
And how she always made skip my breath
But now I can't breathe
Cuz she left when I told her that she can't leave
And I don't think that she coming back
I gotta king size bed
But I was more comfortable on them nights
That we would sleep on a mat
I used to think I was trapped
Maybe I was too high
And couldn't open up my eyes enough
To see what I had
Now when I think of the past
Is the only time is the I find a reason to cry
And the only time I find a reason to laugh
Went through the highs & lows with you
The fires & the smoke with you
I used to say that we in love
I'm sorry that I spoke for you
I'm sorry for not doing all the things I was supposed to do
I'm sorry for abusing you I'm sorry for approaching you
I'm sorry
And I know that I was the worst
And it could never take away all the ways that I made you hurt
But I'm sorry
And I hope that you hear this verse cuz when I'm looking in your face
I could never put it in words
I know that you right for me even when you dead wrong
And you still love to hear this voice in your headphones
If you ever feel like your love getting slept on
We can pick up same page that we left on
Why you let him do you like that?
I ain't never do you like that
Sometimes I wonder if my songs will stop getting better
And if I already lost the girl I'm supposed to be with forever
Sometimes I wonder if my parents were to stick together
Would I have learned
How to love commit and really give an effort
I've always been a misdirector & a big finesser
Did you dirty once
And ever since been trynna disinfect you
You say you don't feel these feelings
Now I'm feeling pressure
And I know that loving you is wrong
But it's my guilty pleasure
You hold a shitload of intel and info
You turned my doors to windows
Enclosed I'm fully exposed
Sometimes love supposed to stink
Cuz that's the way that shit goes
And I ain't trynna forfeit for who I know I'm fit for
I wish those sins I committed
Ain't kill the tempo
But I understand your decision
Comprehension is 10-4
Been battling for justice everyday but now my wins low
And all I got is memories of days that I did go
Through the highs & lows with you
The fires & the smoke with you
I used to say that we in love
I'm sorry that I spoke for you
I'm sorry for not doing all the things I was supposed to do
I'm sorry for abusing you I'm sorry for approaching you
I'm sorry
And I know that I was the worst
And it could never take away all the ways
That I made you hurt
But I'm sorry
And I hope that you hear this verse cuz when I'm looking in your face
I could never put it in words